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Updated Christmas Wish List

My Christmas Wishlist:
• a full-sized duvet
• the latest Blackberry pager
• a scooter or a car
• a DVD player
• an iMac OS X Panther upgrade for my iMac DV
• a decent digital camera
• devoted bee book
• book: Dye & Discharge: Playing on Fabric (Love to Quilt)
• Nintendo DS OR Game Boy Advance SP - Surf Blue or Cobalt (I prefer Surf Blue)
• Final Fantasy I & II: Dawn of Souls game - Costco is the cheapest one, about over 26 dollars, they haven't uploaded the new game info to their homepage yet, but check this site for details: here.
• Final Fantasy I & II: Dawn of Souls (Game Guide) - Game Boy Advance
• Acqua Di Gio Cologne for Men - by Giorgio Armani 3.4 oz Eau de Toilette Spray

Is this a mistake?

To move to Arizona in 5 weeks?

Movie plugs

Alright!!!! I finally found something worthwhile to browse about Japanese movies! Check Midnight Eye - The latest and best in Japanese cinema - interviews, features, film reviews, book reviews, calendar of events and DVD releases, links and more...

Tool plug

I use this Text Fade Generator to make my birthday wishes for my friends on several forums.

Writing plug

RhymeZone rhyming dictionary and thesaurus is good for writing poetry!

The Doctrine of Parking

My best friend wrote this article: The Doctrine of Parking from Evan VanOrman November 21, 2004 Dear Editor, Interested in free parking anyone? Well... it's easy! Just stroll on over to the LDS Institute of Religion and sign up for an institute class and don't forget to obtain your Institute Parking Pass! This handy pass will allow you to park with all those other "Molly Mormons" and "Peter Priesthoods" in their elitist lot. UVSC paid to build an underground tunnel just for these people, so they can run over to their spiritual superiority classes without bringing traffic to a standstill. But wait! You can also just walk across the street and head straight over to UVSC! That's right. Just because you signed up for a daytime class at the Institute of Religion, you won't have to be a chump and pay $60 for parking. What a great deal! Don't mind those pesky cars in the roadway, if they don't stop it'll be blood on their hands. You're in a hurry for crying out loud! What's that? You don't want to take any more classes? Ah come on! This isn't BYU! According to lds.org/institutes , "A student can do as much reading and research of gospel topics as he or she wishes and has time for... The Institute offers grading / credit options to fit the circumstance of each student." These classes aren't hard. Not LDS? No problemo! There is nothing wrong with taking a little afternoon nap in Brother Superrighteous's class. Just be sure to get on the roll 75% of the time - otherwise your free parking is history. Besides, Members LOVE having "Non-Members" in class! (Just keep your mouth shut and nod... yes... that's it... you'll do great.) I can't imagine a better use of the tithes of the Lord's church than having the Institute providing parking in exchange for attendance. I mean, get real! Who would, in their right mind, wish to attend religion classes unless there's some sort of reward? Sign up today and take advantage of a host of other benefits to attending Institute such as getting your picture taken for the "Meat Market Menu" and joining in for a Munch & "Mingle." Who knows, maybe you'll meet your eternal companion! -Evan VanOrman Wow!! I am impressed with this article and I believe he made a lot of valid points!

New "WOW" Factor..

In a daze...

Man!! I wish I could just move to Arizona right now and get it over with. I am done with my ASL class last Tuesday. Nothing else to do until mid-December. I am looking forward to living in Arizona again. Things to do and places to go: IKEA, open captioned films showing 3 weeks at a time, Trader Joe's, Tokyo Express, Streets of New York, Uno's Pizzeria, spending quality time with my nephews and niece. Did I tell you my step-grandmother had a Deaf brother, and she bought all the kids a videotape of "Signing Time: An American Sign Language (ASL) Video for Children" just so they could talk to me!?!?! Wow!! I love my family! I am working on making my own chai tea powder and see if it is any good. If it is, then I will save more money making my own! I was shopping the other day, looking up the prices for making my own chai drink. I nearly shit my pants when I saw the price tag for ground cardamom: $13.49 for 1.75 oz of that $$$ spice! *sigh!* I hope it taste good or better than the ready-made one. I am only experimenting to see which taste better and go with the superior choice. In the past 1 1/2 weeks, I have watched about over 27 DVDs!!! I got this $9.99 a month deal from Hollywood Video. Unfortunately, I can't check out the new released movies, just the one already there for quite some time. I knew it was getting too much, so I made myself commit to getting my kitchen cleaned and organized before I rent another DVD again! It worked! My apartment is starting to feel like a home, my own place! I still have some storage boxes in the other room, but will worry about them later this week. Anyway, I feel great about having a working kitchen! The front room is still a mess from my marble magnets madness. It's a fun mess though! Ohhh, Christmas is coming soon!! It's time to make my Christmas Wishlist 2004! I am going to go with less things to wish for this time. Let me see... link here.. I think I am going to buy myself a DVD player soon, because I am wearing out my iMac's DVD player with all those movies! It overheated several times! Anyway, I named my purple iMac, 'Kirby'. I have to thank ArtizLife a MILLION times for sending me her iMac!! I better make sure I make her a Christmas present and other things, send them off ASAP! Another thing.. I need to get working on my site!! I have been neglecting 3 of my webpages for several months. I need to whip up a layout when I have the chance. I am going shopping for chai stuff now! ;)

Hectic..

Wow! It's been a crazy month! I noticed the last time I updated my blog was in October 19. It makes sense now that I haven't been able to get online much, thanks to one of my roommates who won't pay his share of the internet bill. Last August, this one roommate and I agreed that I can use his Blockbuster Membership to replace his part of the internet bill. Well, he has been grouchy and cranky often that I didn't get my money's worth of renting the movies. His replies were: "Not now, I am not in the mood."; "No, my girlfriend don't like the movies you rent."; "Later, I am watching my movies right now."; and "I am pissed off at you, so I am not letting you check any movies out." And, get this.. I was gone for the whole month of August in Arizona and still paid my share of the internet. I didn't think it was right I had to pay when I am not there to use it, but I paid. During my stay in Arizona, I decided what to do with my life and how to run things. I decided that if my roommates can't pay their part of the deal, I am going to pay what I can and let it disconnect. Later, in the end of September, the same roommate and I talked again about the internet bill. He agreed to pay for 2 months share of the internet because he let his girlfriend use our wireless internet connection for September to October. She only lives the next door, upstairs. So, October came and went. The bill still wasn't paid for. I had another discussion with him again and asked if he was going to pay. He said he will give me burned copies of Macintosh software in exchange to "pay" his part of the internet bill. I told him I prefer money and need to pay it off ASAP. He didn't pay. The very next morning, the internet got cut and all Hell broke loose. He and I fought on AIM, accused me of all sorts of things like "breaking his truck door" and singling me out for his own problems. Also, I said a few things that pissed him off. I noticed when things are said that are true, the guilty party gets angry and pissed off. After our argument online, his girlfriend sent me an IM and asked me not to come home. My roommate sent me several threatening IMs, saying he was going to befriend my ex-wife's husband and bring him over to our apartment and beat me up. She begged me to stay somewhere else so my roommate will chill out. I told her I may have to go to the police station or hospital because those are the only 24-hour places I know I can stay at. I even tried calling my sister. My roommate's girlfriend called the police on me, thinking I was going to kill myself. Hell, no! The visit in Arizona helped me out a lot. I asked her why she called the police when it will make it worse for everyone. She said it was for my safety, and begged me to not tell them about my problem with her boyfriend. Too late, the police was called and they need answers from me. Was I going to lie? No. While the officer tried to talk to me, another friend sent me an IM, warning me that the roommate's girlfriend has been talking behind my back for about a month. *sigh!* The officer questioned me why I am "suicidal". I told him I am not suicidal, I was having problems with one of my roommates and I am just trying to find a place to stay for the night. I made the mistake of telling him my brother-in-law is an officer in the city and I am trying to get a hold of my sister. This officer called the dispatch and the office heard something like: "One of your officers' brother-in-law is suicidal and he needs to be picked up!" Oh, no!! I told the officer I am not suicidal and, already, I knew my brother-in-law is embarrassed! If that girlfriend NEVER called the police, it would have never become worse! My brother-in-law got off work, came over to pick me up and asked me upfront, wanting to know the situation and explain everything. He asked me to get online and IM to my roommate and his girlfriend to meet at the apartment. He called the next police jurisdiction and asked them to send an on-duty police officer to be present. They wouldn't come right away because "an interpreter is not with us", and I told my brother-in-law that I will ask one of our neighbors to interpret for him. Finally, the roommate and his girlfriend showed up. I could tell the girlfriend didn't like that we asked one of the neighbors to interpret. I know that as long as there is reasonable accommodations, it is perfectly fine to have a neighbor interpret a dispute. It's either use that interpreter or do it by paper and pen. No one was getting arrested, so there was no real need for a "certified" interpreter. I appreciated that my brother won't take my side or their side, just keeping it a neutral ground and trying to make things work between me and my roommate. We agreed that we are not to tell anyone anything about what is going on, to leave each other alone and not to touch each others' property. When all is said and done, my brother-in-law had a "brother-to-brother" talk with me. He made sure that I understood I have every right to stay where I am living. I went to the interpreter's apartment and asked for the landlord's phone number. I thanked her for interpreting the situation and apologized for the Utah Deaf people's behavior. The next day, the same roommate gave me such attitude and bullying, writing on the eraser board, saying that he is forcing me out of the apartment and wants me to move out of state. One of my friends and my sister saw the messages. Both think he is being an immature asshole. This roommate even accused me of "ruining the Spirit". I know for a fact that whoever harbors ill-feelings and bullying towards another is the instigator of ruining the Spirit. In your face, pal! I feel so sorry for this roommate because he don't know how to handle his temper, like I don't know how to handle my depression. However, I am the only one who is going to therapy and getting better. I finally moved out to the other apartment, with the landlord's permission, to keep the peace. It's been so nice I am living alone for a while. I am sure you already read my entry about my birthday. Well.. About 2 days after my birthday, my pumpkin got destroyed. No one would confess to ruining my birthday present. I just picked it up and tossed it into the bushes and trees by the apartment to fertilize them. This happened like on October 18 or 19. Then, two days ago, I come home from hanging out at my best friend's house and see the SAME pumpkin sitting on the porch of my new apartment! It's funny and disgusting. There's black rot inside the pumpkin. I disposed of it, thinking this is so immature and hilarious of my ex-roommates to do this. Looking back in the past year, it's been a rough one. I realized that, even though I liked him and admired him, this troublesome roommate has caused me to have a deeper depression in the long term. I was diagnosed with double depression, so I am always depressed, but with other people's depressions or problems layered on my first depression. And, to top it off, I am suicidal, too. You can imagine how that can really mess me up. I ended up in the hospital 3 times in the past summer. His girlfriend was in the hospital a few times, too, for the SAME reason. Both of us weren't that suicidal until this roommate came into our lives. I know he is a good person, but he doesn't realize or mean to have that effect on either of us. Because of a few people coming up to me, saying he and his girlfriend have been talking trash behind my back for over a month, I decided to write this long entry and dish it all out. Truthfully, I am not afraid of this "scary" roommate. He really needs to grow up and start getting wise.

Friend Plug

It's my friend, Cheri, and her homepage!!

Friend Plug

My friend's blog: Constant Chaos!

I like this

Blog Plug

It's a nifty photoblog at 35 Degrees!

How my birthday went..

This is what happened on my birthday last weekend. I stayed up Friday night, chatting and playing games with friends. I got home and finally went to bed like 5 in the morning on Saturday! Whew!! I caught up my rest, woke up about 3 pm. My sister picked me up at 4 pm and went to the Bombay House in Provo, Utah. I had chicken curry and garlic, roasted Indian (I forgot what it was called) bread. We went to the store to buy 4 pumpkins because my sister's in-laws were having a pumpkin carving night. We went to their house to carve the pumpkins. I carved one of 3 bat shadows inside of a moon. We all had my favorite cake: angel food with REAL whipped cream and strawberries. Of course, they sang that "Happy Birthday" song while my sister signed it. It was so nice of her!! After we finished the pumpkin carving, we went to Hee Haws in Pleasant Grove. My sister, her stepdaughter, her stepniece and I went to the Haunted Barnyard and Maize. We spent about over an hour waiting in line!!! After all is done, laughter given and the spooks spent, we went home. I got home around 12:30 AM. It was pretty good birthday this year! ;)

iMac Plug

I better get me a good RSS feed reader for the Mac from about.com's Mac RSS Feed Readers list!

Under the microscope

my friend: Libras, hmm hmm. I have devised a "typical Libra" profile due to my constant exposure to my libra friends... my friend: You spill the beans about EVERYTHING even though you were sworn to keep your lips (hands) sealed. Deaf 258: lol my friend: You think you are slightly (or whole lot) better than most of people Deaf 258: it depends on the level of severity of secret my friend: LOL my friend: Oy vey, you libras! my friend: ;-) Deaf 258: when I do spill the beans, I do it with style and tact Deaf 258: :-X my friend: ;-) Deaf 258: is that all? my friend: Hm my friend: You are loud as well-- (this only apply two libras) very extrovet with your emotions (especially ANGER) my friend: Short temper... ? my friend: Social butterfly as well. Care about others' opinions of you yet will sod off any bad opinions. my friend: That is all I can come up from my mind. Deaf 258: hah Deaf 258: you pretty much nailed it to a T my friend: haha Deaf 258: I dont have a short temper, but when I do have a temper, it is well within good reason my friend: Ah? my friend: so you say... ;-) heh

TV plug

I love this auto commercial!

Icon plug

Make your own icon at Portrait Illustration Maker!!!

iMac plug

Another link for my iMac! Frisky Freeware: free software for Mac OS X!

iMac Plug

I would download this client as soon as I get my iMac! Check out Boycott Advance!

Recipe Plug

You can make your own Krispy Kreme Doughnuts!

Deaf Plug

Awesome!! It's a Japanese Deaf Cafe&Bar!!

Movie Plug

I really want to watch this movie again! It's titled, "What Dreams May Come".

What to wear?

Maybe I should wear gothic gear for Halloween.

Poetry Plug

Haiku Techniques is a good way to get familiar with writing haikus.

It's wood!

And it is very pricey, too!

Game Plugs

Magic Punk GunBound Survival Project

Winter Cleaning

I really need this!!

Can you handle rejection?

Check the "The Paper Napkin email rejection service". Harsh, but well-deserved.

Burn, Baby, BURN!

Shameless Plug

Check out my friend's nephew's band: Startup!!

Japanese art

Tips on Making Temari Balls

New Changes..

I am changing my site's contents. Pretty soon, I will be working on censoring myself and be more accessible to everyone. I am adding a quilts section where I can log my lessons and plans. An image gallery will be included.

Time..

So little time!!! I am afraid I took on more things to do when I am not prepared to give my best.

Which beverage are you?

Take the quiz:

Pepsi

Wasabi

New news how Wasabi does NOT clear the nostrils! Interesting and unfortunate! : ** whoo-hoo! this is my 258th post! **

Natural Eyecandy

ImageoftheDay@SPACEDOTCOM

Do It!

Let's Get Off Our Buts!!

Free SuperBuddies on AIM

Free Superbuddy Tutorial download AIM 5.9 open your buddy list select 'My AIM' select 'Edit Options' select 'Edit Preferences..' in the left column, select 'Expressions' click 'Set Expressions' a window will pop-up and load click 'Change ...' on the wallpaper, sounds and smileys go to http://stupidbuddy.com and pick a Superbuddy to match the theme click 'Apply' a window will pop-up and load your free Superbuddy into AIM close all open windows and go back to your buddy list find someone to send an IM to and test out your new Superbuddy! ** if you try to pick a Superbuddy straight from AIM/AOL, they will make you pay $1.95 for it! **"

Stop the Flood!

Interesting concept: FloodBags.

AIM Tools

Super Buddy Icons for AIM - StupidBuddy.com

My Horoscope

I'm a Libra.

Horoscope for Libra 16 Sep 2004

You need to pamper yourself for a change. Stress coupled with diet will add to stomach problems. Sudden changes regarding friendships are likely to occur if you have tried to change others.

CHOOSE...AriesTaurusGeminiCancerLeoVirgoLibraScorpioSagittariusCapricornAquariusPisces

Kwiz.Biz Daily Horoscopes for your Blog

Awww, damn!

I swore I'd never join ANY social networks again, and thanks to my buddy, I signed up at Myspace.com!! Bastard.

A splash of

color!

Respect, where did it go?

How can this "friend" do this to me?!?

Gag!! I am a cupcake!

Take the quiz: "What dessert are you"

cupcake
You are a cupcake! Innocent and sweet more than every one else. Everyone loves someone like you!

It's my life... Don't you forget...

It has been a long while since I have posted something personal. Everytime I post a personal opinion or a rant, I get burned by other people. I am not out to get revenge! I am out to tell the truth, and usually, truth hurts. I went to Arizona for several weeks. I came back to Utah after I re-evaluated my relationships and friendships with everyone I know of. I have decided to cut my losses, get rid of toxic people and start being healthy for once. I am putting my health and sanity first. If I suddenly stopped talking to you, it is probably one of the following: one, you don't talk to me so I won't waste yours or my time, two, I got tired of being the 'giver' in this one-way road to friendship, or three, you're a disrespecting asshole, plain and simple. A lot of people got me riled up and angry inside. It is my fault I let that affect me. I didn't like feeling like this at all. I have a list of things and issues I want to get off my chest. On top of my shit list is my church members. People at church haven't been good to me, saying that I don't deserve spiritual support just because I don't attend their services. That really made me feel very unwelcome. I believe in the gospel with all my heart and soul. They would never take that away from me, so I transferred to another church of the same religion so I can get my membership back. Remember, folks, if you get mad at the church, it is the PEOPLE, not the religion! The sole reason I haven't been going to my church for over a year is because of my exwife and her husband. They have been nothing but problems for me, the church and their friends. Some of their friends have come up to me upset with my ex and her hubby. What can I do?? What can I say?? She left me and it was her choice. It is her own messed up life and I want nothing to do with it. Her husband assaulted me at a store Last December. A day later, I went to the church's Christmas party, he was there, threatening me with that I-am-better-than-you-and-I-am-gonna-kick-your-ass-bad-boy attitude. My former roommate witnessed his behavior and knew I couldn't attend church as long as my exwife's husband is around. While I was in Arizona, I came across news that she is leaving him! Honey, I know you left me because marriage was "too hard". And, now, you're leaving for the second time, because you realized being with me was easier. I really feel bad for my exwife's soon-to-be second exhusband. Dude, we could start our own Exhusbands' Club! I think he would have been in a lot of less problems if he had watched himself around our exwife. She is not worth your time or my time, dude. She just want a sperm bank and she got it. It's a sad life to live. Hell, yeah!! I am somewhat bitter because I wasted 6 years of my life on my exwife. Now, I am moving on to better things and making sure I don't get that ball and chain again. I am not afraid to tell people I either like or don't like them. The only people I have no problems with are my best friends, their spouses, my current roommates and their dates. With everyone else, they'll have to earn my trust. My trust in many people was lost very fast in the past several months. My former best friend has been "taking" from me, wasted most of my time and patience. He yelled at me a month ago that I am not being a friend, and I yelled back that he hasn't been a good friend to a lot of people, especially me since last year! I do have a heart of gold and my weakness is my willing to help others when they need it. Thanks to others who took my trust away, I am more cautious around others. Right now, I am pretty tired and wired. I am gonna take a nap and finish my post later tonight.

Recipe

I made the cookies from Pacific Chai. When I tried to make the batter, it came out too fine and crumbly. It didn't look normal, so I made some alterations. The results are great!! Buttery, soft and slightly chewy Chai cookies. Yum!! Chai Butter Cookies 1 c unsalted butter at room temp 1/2 c chai powder 2/3 c sugar 1 large egg 1 3/4 c all-purpose flour 1 1/2 tsp baking powder 1 tsp salt Whip butter until light and fluffy. Add chai powder and sugar. Whip again until light and fluffy. Add one egg and blend well. In another small bowl, mix flour, baking powder and salt. Pour flour mixture into the chai batter and mix slowly. Cover batter and put in refrigerator to chill. Set oven to 400 degrees. Take the chilled batter out of the refrigerator. Roll the dough into 1 inch balls. Roll in granulated sugar. Put on greased cookie sheet 4 inches apart. Take a fork or a cookie press and flatten the cookie dough to 1/2 inch thickness. Bake for 10 to 12 minutes. Makes about 18 or more cookies.

PDFied blogs

I like this concept to change your blog into an eBook. Unfortunately, this won't be available to Blogger.com users!

writing resource

Writing-World.com: General Fiction

Fast Coleslaw

one bottle of Briannas Poppy Seed Dressing 2 bags of Dole shredded cabbage (coleslaw) Mix until evenly coated.

bsimple

Pretty good pics at bsimple!

Movie plug

All I could say after viewing the trailers at Ghost In The Shell 2: Innocence: "Holy Crap!"

Upcoming Movies

Since I have been getting the film bug, I have been renting movies and reading sites about movies. You can watch for upcoming movies at: MSN Yahoo Go ComingSoon ifilm Cinecon Rotten Tomatoes

toothpaste for dinner

daily drew drawings

Hot Daisies or Hot Mesas

Biscuit: 4 cups all-purpose flour 4 teaspoons baking powder 1 teaspoon baking soda 1 teaspoon salt 1/2 cup butter, room tempurature 1 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes 1 teaspoon garlic powder 1 dried bell peppers 1 teaspoon dry diced onion 3 cup shredded Cheddar cheese 1 1/2 cup buttermilk Filling: 1 packet taco seasoning 1 lb. ground beef or diced chicken 1/2 cup water Directions: Brown the meat and drain. Add one packet taco seasonings and water. Heat until the liquid is almost gone. Set aside. In a bowl, combine the flour, baking powder, baking soda and salt; cut in butter until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Stir in buttermilk and 1 cup shredded cheese; knead dough gently. Roll out to 1/4-inch thickness. Cut with a 2-1/2-inch, biscuit cutter and place on a lightly greased baking sheet. Top each biscuit with taco seasoned meat. Sprinkle with cheese. Top with a second layer of biscuit and press down to make "sandwiches". Bake at 450 degrees for 10 - 15 minutes or until golden brown. Top with extra cheese to melt. Depending on the thickness of the batter rolled out, it makes between 18 to 36 pieces.

In love!

Yumm, yumm, Pacific Chai!

Blogging Tool

Nifty blogging tool found at Hello!

Stick 'em up, baby!

I have been making stickers. I call them stickers because I don't know what else to call them. You can see what I have so far: I made all of the stickers but I can't remember if I made the stumbleupon sticker or not. If you want one, please say so in my comments page for this post! ;)

A photoblog..

Should I get one?? If so, how can I get my hands on a digital camera to take my own pics?? Digital cameras are so damn expensive!!!!

Kinja, the weblog guide

Avatar Everything!

Get your avatars here!

BuddyZoo

View my BuddyZoo popularity

Anime Alert!

Oooooh, I wanna see Ghost in the Shell 2: Innocence!

F u t u r e M e . o r g

F u t u r e M e . o r g is a good site to write yourself some emails!

AIM Headaches

Crombiequeen119: hi Deaf 258: yes? Crombiequeen119: what sool do u go to? Crombiequeen119: sry kool Deaf 258: I dont go to school Crombiequeen119: how old r u ? Deaf 258: goodbye Crombiequeen119: no? Deaf 258: what do you want? Crombiequeen119: how old r u ? Deaf 258: I dont give out personal info across AIM Deaf 258: sorry Deaf 258: what else you want? Deaf 258: okay, thank you for wasting my time, goodbye.. *blocked user*

BALLOONLAMP

If I had money and resources, I'd buy some balloonlamps!

dropload

Now, dropload's the deal whenever you need to send someone a HUGE file (up to 100MB) within 4 days.

Mountain Dew's latest is a dud

You can go ahead and buy Mountain Dew's Pitch Black. I bought it last night and tasted it. It's nothing to be scared of. The flavor is not the best one I have tasted so far from Mountain Dew's variety. When I think of Mountain Dew's Pitch Black, I think of kool-aid grape plus regular Mountain Dew. It's a sucky dud.

NORMAN MASLOV

Wow! Such fascinating pieces of art!

Cool feature in Blogger.com!

It even lets me post to my blog by email! How cool is that? Yeah, I am testing it out. Testing.. Testing.. 1.. 2.. 3.. Go!

Waiting like an Energizer Bunny..

I am waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for my business cards! Ho-humm.. *tapping fingers*

Shooting People

Ohhh, I need to tell a couple of friends about this site!

Fold this way, fold that way..

I don't know why origami is so fun to make. You can even make an Hawaiian Shirt!

beads, beads and beads!

Want good beads at wholesale prices?? Go to Ornabead.com and iBead.com!

The Quilter's Cache - Marcia Hohn's free quilt patterns and quilting lessons

I have been told by a local quilter in Orem that this is one of the best quilting sites anyone can find online - The Quilter's Cache!

Boo!

A couple of weeks ago, my brother, his wife and 3 kids were staying at my parents' house. Mom and Dad went camping, so they weren't home. It was getting late at night and a heavy storm was going on, then the lightening hit something in the neighborhood. Of course, the lights went out and it was so dark in the house! My brother found a flashlight. Then We all sat down and played with the light and made shadow puppets with our hands. Their second child, Spencer, is only 2 years old. He was playing with the flashlight and started flicking it on and off and on and off and on and off.. *sigh!* You know how ANNOYING it gets with Deaf people, and I am Deaf! I muttered to my brother that it is annoying the heck out of me because it is a Deaf thing. He turned to Spencer and told him that I don't like it when he flicks it on and off repeatedly. Spencer looked at me and I said, "If you do that one more time, you are going to be sorry!" Spencer only smiled and flicked the flashlight off. In the dark, I quickly shuffled forward until I was VERY close to Spencer. He flicked it on and I quickly said a calm, "Boo!" It startled him so bad that he didn't know whether he was going to laugh or cry. Poor Spencer spent the rest of the night staying close with his mother!

Pondering..

I have been in Arizona since August 9, 2004. A few days later, it dawned on me that EXACTLY on August 9, 1996 was the day I moved to Utah from Arizona! I don't know if that is a true coincidence. It's whole 8 years of Utah! Wow!! I am impressed I survived that long! [post temporarily edited] In the meantime, maybe pick up a new hobby or two at nervousness.org!

IKEA Tempe

IKEA Tempe will open on November 10, 2004!

I used to

believe..

Fixing some bugs..

Not done yet!

@thedeafbastard

I am going to be using a new template on @thedeafbastard. I am taking off the old blog page and make it the main page of this site.

ps.

howdy y'all.

BookCrossing ::

BookCrossing is pretty new to me. It reads: The "3 Rs" of BookCrossing... 1. Read a good book (you already know how to do that) 2. Register it here (along with your journal comments), get a unique BCID (BookCrossing ID number), and label the book 3. Release it for someone else to read (give it to a friend, leave it on a park bench, donate it to charity, "forget" it in a coffee shop, etc.), and get notified by email each time someone comes here and records journal entries for that book. And if you make Release Notes on the book, others can Go Hunting for it and try to find it! Hmm, I am thinking about joining this!

:: bubblewrap ::

It *pop!* is *pop!* addicting *pop!* to *pop!* play *pop!* with *pop!* the *pop!* *pop!* *pop!* bubblewrap! *pop!*

VistaPrint Business Cards

Now, my business card looks like this! Get yours from VistaPrint!

Deaf websites. Deaf sites. Deaf Links. Deafsites. Deafwebsites

Hmm.. I am thinking about submitting my 3 URLs to the Deaf websites...

Tater Tot Casserole

Here is a recipe my family grew up on: Tater Tot Casserole 2 lbs ground beef 1 pkg dry onion soup mix 2 cans of cream of mushroom soup 2 cans green beans, drained 1 big pkg. Tater Tots Brown beef and drain. Stir in soup mix, soup and green beans. Spread into a 13x9-inch pan. Then, top with a single layer of Tater Tots. Bake at 350 degrees for 45 to 55 minutes.

nervousness :: welcome to nervous industries

I have decided to join nervousness.org for swapping artwork.

grocerylists.org | The Grocery List Collection

Should I start sending them my grocery lists?

Streets of New York

Streets of New York got one of the best sub sandwiches I ever had!

db-db: DESIGN TOGETHER

db-db: DESIGN TOGETHER gets a 10 on the weirdness scale.

GourmetSleuth - Flan

This reminds me of what my aunt likes, flan and other similar fancy desserts. It is because of my mother and aunt, I am seriously considering a career in being a Pastry Chef.

FilmWatcher.Com

Another interesting site I came across using StumbleUpon.. FilmWatcher.Com :: The Downloadable Short Film Portal!

Sushi and stickyrice.com

Ohhh, lala! I love sushi and stickyrice.com!

Tiny Humanoid Creature Found In Chile

Interesting article I found: Tiny Humanoid Creature Found In Chile.

Deaf258 [ Philip ]

I don't know if I posted this already, but here is my StumbleUpon profile!

Deaf258's album - Photobucket.com

I found a nifty, free image gallery for my future blog skins and AIM Expressions! It's at Deaf258's album!

Photobucket Image Hosting and Online Photo Albums

Okay!! If you want to have images online and you don't want to use your bandwidth, go register at Photobucket!

Gifts in a Jar

My aunt showed me some pages she printed off of Gifts in a Jar. Looks like it is a fun and nifty gift-giving idea!

WWII Trends

I have noticed lately that there is a growing trend in WWII stories and movies. And the strange thing is that I have been having dreams about WWII! Does this mean another big war will happen soon?

StumbleUpon Toolbar

This StumbleUpon Toolbar is a nifty little tool to kill time, if you got any!

Business Card

I'd probably use this as my potential business card. Maybe this one or that one! This one looks nice, too! Help me decide by using my comments option below this post! ;)

IKEA Store!

I am going to the IKEA Store next week in Arizona! I can't wait to finally start organizing my fabrics! I have like 5 boxes full of fabric sitting around in fugly cardboard boxes. I am surprised I let the fabrics build up and I never use them. It is about time they come out of the boxes into the light and good use!

New Terms of Service!

Pretty soon, my blog will be back up in working order. I will be adding more posts about my personal life and things I like to talk about. I also included the new Terms of Service which states: Acceptance of Terms By using deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com in any way you are agreeing to comply with these terms, which we may update without notice and encourage you to check back here at any time. To use deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com, you must be legally competent to enter a binding agreement. Terms / Conditions If you are an employee of any agency or company viewing and collecting information from deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com, you are forbidden to view any of the pages on deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com. If you are a disgruntled user, please refrain from spamming comments and email addresses which are posted. Use the TOS email to solve any concerns or problems you may have with me and/or my websites. Any information provided on deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com is considered for reading entertainment purposes only. By viewing deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com, you give up any and every legal right to file litigations against the owner, webhosts, webmasters, and other users. If you use any of the pages on deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com for personal use or benefit in retributions against the site's owner, webhosts, webmasters and other users, legal actions will be filed against you. Threats and any negative impacts imposed on another through the use of deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com that may prevent the viewers' enjoyment of the site are NOT allowed. Legal actions may or will be filed against those who made threats. If you don't like the contents posted on deafblogs.com and/or thedeafbastard.com, you can simply leave and never come back.

I am in LOVE with this Supre Hempz Herbal Moisturizer!!

Former msn screenname: (c) ugly bun scratcher (c)

Because of this IE Exploit, I have gone Firefox all the way!

Props to daluris @ MindSay!

I got my crazy MSN screennames from Mess.be! Click on the crazy random screen names link. My previous screenname was "(S) hypnotic cow slayer (*)".

Make your own Southpark Character!

Whew!! It's been a long while since I added to my blog. A lot has happened since then! The result is that I am living in a new place and my exwife still stalking me. :\ If things do not settle down soon, I may have to ultimately move back to Phoenix, AZ.

It'sMe is going on my wishlist!

If I had a better computer, I'd be playing GunBound!

I can't wait to play Magic Punk!

Here's a song: Turning Japanese - The Vapors

I gotta eat there at the Pinnacle Peak Patio! It is Arizona's original western steakhouse.

Protect your banana with bananaGUARD!!

More pictures of the Convertible MINI Cooper!

Can you imagine a paper DVD??

Who is Larry??

A fun link: Google Fight : Make a fight with Googlefight!

Ooohh, I would like to drive one sometime!! 2005 MINI Cooper Convertible

Tax & Taxes: TurboTax Software & Tax Information Including Tax Preparation Advice, Tax Help, Tax Solutions, Federal Income Tax Forms & Tax Return Filing

A friend sent me this nifty link to a site loaded with quotes! You can check out THE NOTEBOOKS OF LAZARUS LONG!

This hypocrite is Hellbent on winning friends and trying to make me look like a bad person by sharing my personal information on various Deaf forums. The sad thing is that he hasn't moved on and I did! I do admit he made a great moderator and I do thank him for the rides to my therapist. Also, thanks to him and my exwife, I made a break-though last January! Now, I am on the path of getting better and making wiser, better choices.

I wish I was in London right now!

I got some info for my Deaf/Hard-of-Hearing friend who is a student at BYU: ACLU of Utah Web Site: http://www.acluutah.org Contact Information Executive Director: Dani Eyer 355 N. 300 W. Suite #1 Salt Lake City, UT 84103 Phone: (801) 521-9289

Some nice toolbars you can use on your WinXP! - Stardock's ObjectDock - Tobias Cohen's LaunchTab

four by six All I can say is "Wow!"

I am thinking about implementing a miniBB forum on my deafblogs.com..

Some nice skins at mantradream.com!

I like the simple, yet elegant look and feel @ Rustynet.de!

This got to be the best advertisement on a bus!

Shawn sent me a link to Piebald Ball Pythons. Whoa!! I have never seen snakes like this before!! Fascinating!

Sweet!! Check ouy Zoob's Dubilicious Groove..

I really like this song: No Doubt - It's My Life Lyrics It's funny how I find myself In love with you If I could buy my reasoning I'd pay to lose One half won't do I've wondered I've asked myself How much do you Commit yourself? It's my life Don't you forget It's my life It never ends (It never ends...) Funny how I blind myself I never knew If I was sometimes played upon Afraid to lose Oh, I'd tell myself What good do you do Convince myself Oh, It's my life Don't you forget Oh, It's my life It never ends (It never ends...) And I've asked myself How much do you Commit yourself? It's my life Don't you forget Caught in the crowd It never ends (its my life) It's my life Don't you forget Caught in the crowd It never ends (It never ends) Oh, It's my life... (oh its my life) Don't you forget... (don't you forget) Caught in the crowd... (caught in the crowd) It never ends (it never ends...) (more at No Doubt)

I wrote an email to all of my roommates: Fuck you all. I don't care who to blame. I am tired of the backstabbing going on at the apartment! I thought we already talked about this and resolved everything!! What the Hell is going on?? Why are there problems again?? I tried the CussCard and I guess it isn't good enough. I tried having the Spirit revitalized and peace put back in our apartment and I guess the Spirit is not good enough for you. I tried having good lessons during FHE here at this apartment and I guess my words aren't good enough. I tried to help do more around the house and keeping it clean, but it is still not enough. Obviously, one or more of you guys do not want to have the Spirit here! I am finally tired of you being hypocrites and wasting my time. I really do not know you anymore because you keep switching words and stories, never revealing your true face. I am fed up for good! I am tired of your childish games which I have no time for. That's it... I don't want to talk to any of you for a while and I don't want to read any email coming from you because I want this shit to stop. Period. I am moving out on or before May 1.

I don't mind buying the DVDs and Manga books to this new anime: SAIKANO!

Whew!! For a long time, I wasn't feeling myself and wasn't a very happy person. Now, with new start on life, new love and new goals, I am so inspired today! First, I am going to be doing a lot of cleaning. I was reading this book all day yesterday. Slept in very late today! Now, I am going to clean my AIM buddylists and weed out usernames that never sign on or talk to me. If you want to stay on my list, please send me an IM and I will keep you on my buddy list. If I don't know you, don't bother asking to be on my list because I am already using four screennames. Two of them are FULL already! I want to downsize to 2 screennames. Second, since I have a new love in my life now, I need to sort out my own life by starting with my room. Ugh! My room is a big mess and I am going to be working on it and throwing away a lot of things. And, third, I need to get the rest of the apartment cleaned and organized. I think the way things are being run with my roommates, especially in the kitchen, the apartment needs more improvement! I'll keep posting more after a little time and work on my "things to do" list.

KRT Wire | 03/29/2004 | Feng Shui Frees Up Energy Flow at Ogden, Utah, Office

My new mailing list at deaf258.notifylist.com!

email:

I want a house that looks like this inside a log cabin home with stone walls and columns!

All I could say is "WOW!"

Freak Test results: You have completed the test; Your score is 5! 1-5: You're a freak, and you love it! We do, too.

BUSTED!!!! Kilee.. You're busted for being a friggin' hypocrite!! You preach at me all the time to stay out of other people's businesses! WHY DON'T YOU PRACTICE WHAT YOU ARE PREACHING, SISTER? For every screenname you make and use to attack other people, the more I will list them on my blog!! Do yourself a favor, crack open your scriptures and study while you stay away from the computers and prepare for a mission!! JEKB19: Hey My Roommate: yeah My Roommate: who are u JEKB19: Well, I want to say something... JEKB19: Well I am wendy's friend and I know you have been really rude to her lately and I can't believe why people can't just leave her and roger's problems alone. So will you please backoff and grow up from childish! JEKB19: You have no proof on who is telling the truth ok? JEKB19: Just leave her alone and you worry about your life ok??? JEKB19: Thank you JEKB19: Once a person who did a sexual abuse or anything tend to do it again for the rest of his life and I know its true. JEKB19: Don't you feel passion for a women who suffer rapist, if u were a women and how would u feel if you were in her place and nobody believes you. JEKB19: I have see her through emotionally... It was hard, and I was amazing that she is survive through this. JEKB19: I love u like my bro but I can't just believe why people would just believe adult more than young people who suffer. JEKB19: Thanks. My Roommate: i want to make sure that she know that some of my roommates using my computer while I was other room....that all. *** Error while sending IM: This user is currently not logged on

Quilt Kits | Lasagna

It has been quite a while since I posted something decent. There have been several situations going on in the local Deaf community which disappointed and embarrassed me..

I have been going to a few festivals hosted at the Sri Sri Radha Krishna Temple, Utah.

Thanks to Molly, I got hooked to Mancala! I am gonna be asking Craig to help me make a few of these

Mancala Boards!

Do NOT get the Messenger Plus! unless you want to mess up your IE and registry!

I know for a fact that some Deaf guys are gonna wear this shirt to a court coming up soon!

This is a funny story I read on another Deaf forum: DON'T FART IN BED This is a story about a couple who had been happily married for years. The only friction in their marriage was the husband's habit of farting loudly every morning when he awoke. The noise would wake his wife and the smell would make her eyes water and make her gasp for air. Every morning she would plead with him to stop ripping off because it was making her sick. He told her he couldn't stop it and that it was perfectly natural. She told him to see a doctor; she was concerned that one day he would blow his guts out. The years went by and he continued to rip them out! Then one Thanksgiving morning as she was preparing the turkey for dinner and he was upstairs sound asleep, she looked at the bowl where she had put the turkey innards and neck, gizzard, liver and all the spare parts and a malicious thought came to her.. She took the bowl and went up upstairs where her husband was sound asleep and, gently pulling back the bed covers, she pulled back the elastic waistband of his underpants and emptied the bowl of turkey guts into his shorts. Some time later she heard her husband waken with his usual trumpeting which was followed by a blood curdling scream and the sound of frantic footsteps as he ran into the bathroom. The wife could hardly control herself as she rolled on the floor laughing, tears in her eyes! After years of torture she reckoned she had got him back pretty good. About twenty minutes later, her husband came downstairs in his bloodstained underpants with a look of horror on his face. She bit her lip as she asked him what was the matter. He said, "Honey, you were right. All these years you have warned me and I didn't listen to you." "What do you mean?" asked his wife. He replied, "Well, you always told me that one day I would end up farting my guts out, and today it finally happened. But by the grace of God, some Vaseline, and these two fingers, I think I got most of them back in!"

My Quizilla!

THIS is at the TOP of my wishlist for the year 2004!

YOU ARE ... MYSTERIOUS HERO!

What Kind of Anime Character Are You?
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Linkage for Cheri: Daisy Dreams!

Wow!! I just saw a one sweet layout here!!!

Awww, I love cats and here is a good movie of the funniest felines! *requires Flash

One roommate left his computer open and a message popped up, another roommate was sitting at the computer and ended up talking to this dumb blonde who just seem have the uncanny ability to spread her legs easily to any males: DumbBlonde84123: Hi sorry I was long hld before Roommate: hi slut Roommate: wasssup Roommate: PLEASE dont send me to JAIL!!!!! DumbBlonde84123: Me how am I slut? :-) DumbBlonde84123: I won't lol DumbBlonde84123: Lol Roommate: ok good whew DumbBlonde84123: U didn't do anything bad. DumbBlonde84123: :-) DumbBlonde84123: Lol Roommate: neither did roger DumbBlonde84123: Roger did to me Roommate: how so? DumbBlonde84123: I am serious Roommate: you said "yes" DumbBlonde84123: Yes he did raped me I have the poof Roommate: poof? Roommate: meaning like dream poofing ? DumbBlonde84123: Evidance I mean duh Roommate: how so? Roommate: you kept the cum in the bag? Roommate: using the vaccum and vaccum out the cum to put in bag? Roommate: that mean you have stephen's cum too? DumbBlonde84123: No. But the way he done to me and he did wrong so I did the right thing so if u talk to me like that I don't care if u don't believe me or not. Roommate: you probably raped roger's little dick Roommate: maybe change to hotslut84123? And no reply for a loooong time! Damn, that was HARSH! LOL!

I am now a Procrastinate Fan!

If you are a pregnant mom and you have a blog, you can use the Pregnancy Script!

I took a bunch of quizzes out of boredom and ended up with 2 results: a list of quiz results and a new quiz page of my own that I will post here later! Whoo-hoo! I am having fun!
You came from the sky. Your a daydreamer and prefer
to have a good look on situations.

Where did you come from?
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You're Anti! Anti human to be excact. You can't
stand humans, so you try to avoid them what so
ever. You're not in a group. You try to stay
away from everyone, but that's quite a task in
this world full of humans.

What kind of group person are you?
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Water. Whatever you do, where or when, you do it
with all of your heart. You listen to your
heart and all of your emotions are true
non-acting. Friends are very importent to you
and you will do anything for them. You're the
most dreamy of all 4 elements.

What is your element?
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Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!

Please rate ^^

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Someone asked me about where to find a tagboard. I don't know if Firewall offers his script for free or not, but I did a little homework for the remotely hosted tagboards: http://www.activetopic.com/ http://www.8op.com/ http://www.retrostats.com/tagboard/ http://www.tagboard.ca/index.php http://www.free-tagboard.com/ http://www.tag-board.com http://www.zonkboard.com/

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Pager Etiquette When to Unplug Do not drive distracted Use a land-line whenever possible Use capitals and proper spelling and grammar, even on a PDA Devote your full attention to people you're in the room with, (dining companions, coworkers in a working session, the facilitator and other team members in a meeting, etc.) unless you excuse yourself. If you must take a call, excuse yourself and leave the room until you are finished. Do NOT distract others in public places where they might be concentrating or enjoying the experience (parks, performances, libraries, etc.) Setting Your Own Guidelines Your company, or your family, may want to set up some guidelines for the use of electronic devices. Some things to consider: "Check Your Guns At the Door" I usually have a "check your guns at the door" policy in any meetings where the attention of participants is required. This means that all cell phones, pagers, laptops, etc. have to be turned off. To make it easier for people to do without their gadgets, and harder for them to come up with excuses, I send a preprinted agenda with space for people to take notes on. (People who take notes on their laptops are generally also checking their e-mail several times an hour, checking the news and their stocks, or possibly even playing games! The tempatation of all that information and entertainment at your fingertips is simply too great.) This makes our meetings much more productive, and the level of participation much higher. (Maybe partly because everybody is in a hurry to conclude our business and get back to their e-mail!) Silent Only You may also have less formal meetings, touchpoints or workgroup sessions; or sessions where people involved with critical operations functions are required to attend, and are required to be "pageable." If this is the case, insist that all devices be set to "silent" and calls be taken only for emergencies. Technology Free Zones You may want to designate certain areas as "technology free" or at least "silent" at all times, such as break rooms, libraries, family dining areas, etc. This will give you some oases of peace to to think and plan, or socialize in person with co-workers or family members in the absence of beeps, clicks and annoying little tunes. Conclusion Manners are as important today as they were in Emily Post's day. The basics of courtesy still apply in every situation, they just need to be applied differently in situation involving technology. As they pervade the culture, hopefully more people will recognize this. In the meantime, you can start by developing some guidelines for your workgroup, your company, or your family. Pager Etiquette PROPER BUSINESS ETIQUETTE FOR USING ELECTRONIC COMMUNICATING DEVICES: "Cellular phones and pagers also don't belong in church, in a restaurant, at a wedding, a funeral, in a classroom, or at a seminar. And yet, because of the spreading influence of such gadgets, we've all had to contend with rude high-tech interruptions at the most inappropriate moments. Civility and etiquette, it seems, have taken a back seat to an unquenchable desire for constant and immediate information." the scribblings: The World of Text Pagers: "The World of Text Pagers Ways of life have changed for us, the deaf people. That began to happen few years ago when the invention of text pagers came out. Such as RIM 850, RIM 950, Motorola T900, and then Sidekicks. This morning when I was headed out to my biology class, I was surrounded by my friends waiting at the bus station. All of them were facing down on their own pagers. They acted like I was not even there aside them and did not bother to put the pager away to generously chat. Can you imagine yourself finally seeing your friends again and they all are too busy talking on their cell phones ignoring you completely like you are not even there. Not that I am against pagers, in fact, I do own a sidekick and occasionally use it for contacting reasons—not chatting reasons. I tend to leave my sidekick in my purse or backpack, and check every few hours to see if anyone has been trying to reach me. And when I am around my friends, I do not handle my pager yet I find them paying attention on their own pagers. It has been very frustrating. Some could go back and forward, to me and the pager acting like I am the second priority. So the importance is technology before humans? Now that has led me to believe that the deaf culture will actually fade as technology gets more advanced. The deaf culture is going to be all gone someday. Many predict that deaf culture will disappear due to cochlear impacts which is true, however I think the text pagers are a big impact on our culture. I see everyone talking to everyone via pagers. I have seen a friend talking to the other in just the next or same room! Sign language will lose its colors as the deaf depend more and more on technology for communicating. Unfortunately, it is impossible to avoid, almost every deaf person has a pager now and is ignoring others in their own surroundings. Text is their entire world now, plainly just text. It has been so disappointing to me just because I know the culture will fade away s l o w l y." Electronic etiquette - 02/26/01 Gadget Etiquette - Using Technology with Good Manners

First Kiss How old were you when you had your first kiss? My first kiss was during 1979 to 1980, when I was in 1st grade. I was probably 7 or 8 years old that time. I remember her name was Megan. It happened several times during recess. We were making a lot of kisses while sitting in the shade inside one of those painted cement pipes in the playground. Both of us never got caught. ;)

sidekick pager manners

Hello dear friends of mine!! ;)

Before I start off with my message, I would like to point out I believe this is not spam. My message explains a very good point and deep concern with the Deaf quality of life. In the past few weeks, I have been noticing a lot of angry confrontations and frustrations between friends using pagers in activities, while visiting friends and important meetings. I wrote up a challenge to you to read and share with your friends. If you plan to forward this, PLEASE write a personal message and erase other people's emails and attachments to keep it clean so others would not get upset for receiving this challenge!! Peace!

Philip/Deaf258

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Pagers Etiquette Challenge

I challenge all pager users to give up using their gadgets at least for one day per week!

I challenge my friends who use pagers frequently to turn them off once they come in my door to visit me.

I challenge all pager users to ignore all pages and emails during class times and meetings.

I challenge my friends' friendships on the way they use their pagers while talking to me. If I am being ignored in a conversation and a pager is more important than talking to me, get the fuck out of my face!

I challenge all pager users to TURN OFF their pagers when they are on a date! If you use your pager at all, your date will be TURNED OFF.

I challenge all pager users to set a good example of properly using the pagers and electronic devices!

I challenge all pager users to wisely use their pagers for emergencies.

Do you accept my challenge?

Here is my stand on abortion:

• I do not believe in abortion.
• Use protection if you don't want to get pregnant. It's more cost effective emotionally and financially.
• If you don't want the baby, you can always give up for adoption. There are couples who cannot have children who would love to have a baby. I have attended an adoption conference in Salt Lake City and met a few of those wonderful couples in attendance.
• Even though abortion is not recommended, abortion would only be allowed, after prayer and mediation, for 2 reasons: -- If the pregnancy is going to kill the mother. -- If the pregnancy is caused by rape, the mother shall be allowed to decide to abort or keep the baby.
• Last of all, I don't understand why anyone would abort innocent babies! Don't even bother trying to make me understand because I just can't.

I am impressed!! It is not often I come across a Deaf blogger who does it better than I do! Check out the scribblings!

lipstickparty.com got the sweetest layout!

Yay!! I finally got permission from Chad at devoted bee to use his images for making blog templates! I will post the templates here before I submit them to BlogSkins.

I found this quiz off a Deaf forum I frequent. This is just for fun! Take just a couple of minutes to take this Feng Shui Horoscope quiz and see how you fare. A new year has started, hopefully good fortune is around the corner. Please get a piece of paper and a pen out before you take this quiz. Answer each question before you go to the answers page. Click to find out your Feng Shui Horoscope! After you take the quiz, click here to see my Feng Shui Horoscope!

I was searching the internet for some images to use as backgrounds. These are the following links I found of good interest: devoted bee apple-eyes photography :: daniele young :: the Creatures in my Head. / Daily illustrations by Andrew Bell j e n n i f e r m o r g a n ::::: w e l c o m e t o g r e e n t w i g Cute Color

In case you don't know about this.. You can use AIM on Sidekick pager from T-Mobile to use relay service!! Click here to add MobileTTY to your contact list or click here to send a message to Mobile TTY. It will tell you how to register and use the relay service through AIM!

Take my quiz!

For people who are closing their AOL accounts: Umm, I did a little research and found out the answer to your soon-to-be-dead-AOL-screennames.. Did you know that you can change your AOL screenname to AIM screenname and still keep it?? Before you cut your AOL service, you will need to download AIM 5.5 from http://www.aim.com and install. Try using AIM and use your AOL screenname and password, enter.. A buddy List will open up.. Then on the computer's taskbar, you would need to click on that blue, round 'e' icon that will start up the Internet Explorer (not in AOL browser!), copy the following address and paste to the location bar in IE: https://aim.aol.com/password/change_password.adp Enter your AOL screenname and type in old, new and verify passwords, approve the changes. Then go back to the AIM 5.5 program, sign off, then log back on with the old screenname and new password. Do NOT use AOL EVER again with the changes! You will still have your AOL screennames as AIM screennames!! You won't have to make a new one unless you want to.. When you do make the changes to AIM, your email would be (yourscreenname)@netscape.net, you would need to activate the email account if you plan on using Netscape's Webmail. It's at http://my.netscape.com and click the email icon on the homepage, enter your screenname and new password, then it is activated! Goodluck!

A very interesting site! Check out CERAVERRE: ceramique et verre!

Fun Fact of the Day: Kiefer Sutherland acted in a Deaf movie: Crazy Moon.

hmm..

Thanks to a friend named Liza for interpreting my nightmare and giving me a new insight! Here's her interpretation: Pt 1: Dream Interp ------- First thing you gotta know before I give ya the rest: Everything I have written are only possibilities based on what is available to me through a few dream interp sources and my intuition. I really feel you are the only one in the world who knows what vibes with you or not. In that note, feel free to drop what doesn’t match your feelings! To conquer the recurring nightmare you are having, I feel it is vital to understand what your subconscious is trying to communicate through this nightmare. Then the nightmare will be presumably discontinued. Nightmares may be a response to real life trauma or situations, and they are considered to be part of a category called post traumatic stress nightmare (PSN). Something terrible may have happened to you a long time ago or recently that your mind is working really hard to resolve. Nightmares also might happen when we have ignored or refused to accept certain life situations on a regular basis. Pt 2:: Dream Interp ------- Most of all, I believe nightmares are a sign that there is a fear that needs to be acknowledged and confronted. Let us tackle these moments of intense fear head on with some triggers: The chase, blood, being caught or being discovered, witnessing friends being brutually murdered, not being able to see the killer's face 1. The Chase: When you dream that you are being chased, it could mean that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is able to be defeated or conquered. It also could be a sign of insecurity. There could be also unexpressed and unacknowledged anger being manifested in this killer on your part. There is also a fear of being attacked which all of your friends and you have displayed. The dirt and rough road also may represent the consequences of choices made in your life, and possibly also how you have chosen to live your life. Or you feel everybody is out to get you, too. I feel there's another fear of being consumed by your anger and injuring others around you with it, and there is a need to run away from it all so it won't harm you and everyone. But everyone still gets killed anyway, and this approach seems to serve no one. 2. Blood: Seeing some in your dream could represent life, love, passion as well as disappointments. If you are bleeding, it could mean that you are being emotionally drained or just exhausted. Other friends bled, too – emotional draining for them, too, to be on the run as it would be for you. Running out of gas reinforces that possibility. Energy is fuel, and you have your spirituality as your fuel. Just whom or what is draining you? Old ways that don’t serve you anymore, or others who might be “energy vampires” and feed off you through certain dramas/situations? Pt 3 Dream Interp ------- 3. Shotgun: To see a gun may show aggression, anger and potential danger. Are there issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence? Power. There are ways to wield your personal power. You have a choice of how you can deal with situations and people: Do you choose to make people feel like they are walking on eggshells around you or do you choose to look at it as something to be learned from? The theme of this nightmare seems to be about possible growth being bought on by a change in how you look at yourself and others and situations. The rest will take care of itself tomorrow! An example: Buddha was asked by somebody about creating world peace, and he responded that one had to create inner peace first. 4. Road: It may symbolize your sense of direction and pursuit of your goals. A killer on a road may show there is an obstacle that needs to be overcome at this time. Dirty and rough were how you described the road – is there confusion with the choices you are making or you have to make soon? Wait! You noted a few trees by the side of the road: Symbols of new hopes, growth, and desires. There are strength and stability. Focusing on that self development and individuality, huh? Perhaps instead of focusing on one path too much, you gotta look at both sides for growth and strength. Pt 4: Dream Interp ------- 5. Friends: They may be symbols of aspects from your personality that you have ignored but you are ready to let parts of yourself back in your reality. Pay attention to the relationships you have with your friends in the nightmare – and how they interact with you. The first couple who bit the dust – the male aspect did not trust you to keep them safe in your vehicle (presumably your body), so it took the female aspect that it is partnered off with. It could be the ego with his partner inner child. I do not have much knowledge on this part. Maybe self esteem and confidence? Also, killing your friends may mean you are trying to reject some of yourself… before you get hurt badly. Gotta be tough without some of your aspects you consider to be your weakness so you won’t get hurt again. BUT, a part of you doesn’t want to get rid of them in the end: You warned them to hide so they won’t get killed, too. 6. The sun: Possibly peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquillity, fortune, goodwill, wonderful energy, good omen, and insight. This is a positive thing to see in your dream. You have mentioned a few times noticing the sun, and that it made it hard for you to look at the killer’s face. There may be an element of self worthiness – you might feel you don’t deserve something great such as peace or joy, and are punishing yourself. Therefore, that may be the reason you are avoiding some issues within. Pt 5: Dream Interp ------- 7. Death: Death may mean changes, and transformation for the better. You mentioned having a sense of peace and fear at the same time when you anticipated being killed, and got killed. It may mean the end of old beliefs, old patterns, self destructive habits, or even an old security blanket, and imply a new beginning of realized lessons and new perspectives on life and your spirituality. I believe you already have the strength which was shown as a few trees by the road. You’ve had a glimmer of what can happen. To die a good death and to be renewed, you may also have to forgive yourself and let go of what you have been holding onto for a long time. Time for healing is at hand. 8. Golden and tall grass: Protection? The kind of natural and built in defensive mechanism that is slowing you down? 9. Junkyard of Construction companies: Where you took your last stand with the killer may indicate an area in your consciousness that needs some “cleaning up” or “fixing up.” You may be hiding in leftover materials that you once used to build with, but knocked them down and made a yard where you could dump unwanted elements whenever you needed to. This also may symbolize what you have planned and hoped for, and you were working on making them come true until perhaps something bad happened that made you drop everything except these beautiful dreams to think about from time to time. Pt 6: Dream Interp ------- 10: Crying: It may show that you are releasing negative emotions that were more likely caused by some real life situations or an inner conflict. I believe if you had this at the end, despite all the horrors in the beginning – you are regaining some emotional balance and finding a way to safely vent your fears and frustrations that may have been ignored or repressed in the waking life. There may also be a feeling of helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others, and nobody gets you. Perhaps this dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder on making yourself understood in words that others are familiar with. 11: Finally, the killer pointed at your chest – where the seat of your heart would be, and he shoots it. Perhaps you are trying to destroy or suppress a part of yourself that might hold all the answers because there is a fear of letting go of everything including a good security blanket and going into unknown and unfamiliar territories. Ever heard of the saying about following your heart? Conclusion of my Interp ------- 12: In conclusion, I feel there is a lot of anger in this dream – and I have always believed anger comes from the feeling of being betrayed or violated. It is a natural self defensive response to a violation. I think it’s normal, and that we all have those! Sometimes we have grown up with certain ideas of how to express our anger that may not be the best for us and others. Have you noticed some recurring patterns with how you express your anger and frustration with others, and how others have reacted? There may be a lack of communication or misunderstanding on all parts. Others may even not realize what your boundaries are, and they have stepped in a minefield without meaning to. If it is about boundaries, it may be helpful to use others’ languages to describe your boundaries so they will be given the choice to honor them or not. It is also possible that from some bad experiences that you have learned to suppress some of yourself (the killer vs the friends) so you won’t feel pain and that horrible violation again. That has worked until now? There’s always a time for everything, huh? No worries! That is also why you must find a way to forgive yourself, and free yourself from the last step or chapter so you can begin another new chapter as an author. There are ways, and the dream gave you a few of them: Plug up the leaks that are making you feel emotionally drained, release through venting (crying, etc) in your own safe space and at your own pace. Your dream is telling you to look for gifts in both sides, too. Where there is darkness, there is always light. It is an incredibly personal dream. I feel honored to know that part of you and I wish all the success to you! May you get an endless supply of animes for the rest of your life.

I woke up about 2:30 AM from a nightmare. Blah!! I didn't want to go back to sleep! Here is the thing about me and dreams, I don't like to have nightmares when I am asleep and I have more nightmares than I have good dreams. The nightmare I had earlier was same one I had a couple months ago and is probably the third time I had! The nightmare was sort of like that Mad Max movie, except it is on the countryside. I cannot remember how it started, but I do remember how it ended. Several friends and I were driving different vehicles up a dirt road during the day. There were a lot of tall, golden grass, a few trees along the roadside, and a few junk items thrown here or there. Then I noticed someone speeding after us and I suddenly got a bad feeling. I started to press on the gas pedal and some of us started to freak out. One friend riding on my vehicle demanded to be dropped off because he thought it would be safer for him and his girlfriend than to ride with me. I dropped the couple off and sped away, turning around to see the person in the truck/van behind us pull over. He walked out, surely, quickly and precise, aimed his shotgun at the couple. He popped 2 rounds at my friends as they fell backwards to avoid getting shot. I knew right then they died instantly. The killer got back in his vehicle and sped after us. He aimed for another friend in a vehicle behind me, shooting a few rounds, resulting with my friend waving in pain and for help as his blood splattered across his windshield. The vehicle rolled over off the dirt road. The rest of the friends riding with me were yelling at me to be left off because they assumed the killer is after our vehicles. We drove a little faster and almost just about to lose the killer in the distance. The it happened, my vehicle started jerking a bit and died down. I noticed my other driving friends were having trouble driving on the rough, dirt road and I knew gas was running out fast. My vehicle started jerking badly and I pulled over, yelling at my friends to get the fuck out and run like Hell! We all got out and I looked down the road as I ran. Between the trees, I could see the front fender and the sun glinting off the headlights of the killer's vehicle as he sped up the road. We got tired fast from running in the thick, tall grass. I saw a large metal sheet up ahead with broken chainlink fence thrown about. It looked like someone from a construction project dumped the material there. I quickly hid under the sheet metal and told my friends to hide, but it was too late. The killer saw my friends as they cowered behind the mess of concrete and chainlink fence. He pulled up behind my vehicle and quickly walked out of his. Again, he was quick and approached my remaining friends. He aimed at them, popping his shotgun into their foreheads. I could see blood spraying out behind them. I was never so scared of my life before! Crying, I rolled myself into a fetal position as I felt footsteps coming closer to me when the sheet metal was pulled away. He quickly aimed at my chest as he stood over me. I looked up and couldn't see his face because the sunlight was shining behind him. Then I felt fear and peace at the same time. It was too eerie, so I turned away, closing my eyes. After a moment of quiet in the warm sunshine, I felt a hot, loud blast hit me from his shotgun. Then I woke up.

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So, are you saying that if my parents had given me CIs when I was little, the first thing I would 'hear' my parents say would be, "I love you more because you can hear better!"?! Think again, it's screwed up. What's wrong with parents loving the children regardless of their handicaps, disabilities and/or deafness? I prefer my parents to love me no matter what, than to focus on what is wrong with me! Growing up, I have had some experiences with my parents where it was clear that they were trying to "fix" me. It came to the point that they have been trying too hard with doctor appointments, audiologists and hearing aids. I never had a lot of fun with my parents because they really put too much energy on making me speak perfectly and not allowing me to have a normal childhood. It put a bad strain on our relationship between myself and my family! It won't be any different with cochlear implants. If my parents did put cochlear implants, I would be beyond pissed! Too many parents have this misconception that buying hearing aids or cochlear implants automatically makes their Deaf child(ren) obligated to do what the parents want them to do, having to live their lives through the parents' dreams, realities and high expectations. It has come to the point where life as a Deaf child with hearing aids/cochlear implants reeks of verbal, emotional abuse and near-slavery! My final point: It is MORE important for me to be understood and loved than to be able to hear and feel "broken"!

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The con's of Cochlear Implants.

Retro X: the new type of hearing aid!

Books I wanna get and read: Fahrenheit 451 : A Novel by Ray Bradbury Something Wicked This Way Comes by Ray Bradbury The Martian Chronicles by Ray Bradbury Zen in the Art of Writing by Ray Bradbury The Illustrated Man by Ray Bradbury Blade Runner by Philip K. Dick A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L'Engle A Wind in the Door by Madeleine L'Engle Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen Sense and Sensiblity by Jane Austen 1984 by George Orwell, Erich Fromm Streetcar Named Desire by Tennessee Williams Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams Metropolis by Thea Von Harbou The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess Lord of the Flies, a Novel. by William G. Golding, Edward Morgan Forster To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger OF MICE & MEN by John Steinbeck The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck Death of a Salesman by Arthur Miller Animal Farm by George Orwell Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne, Austin Warren One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey Brave New World by Aldous Huxley

I have been profoundly d/Deaf since birth, I speak very well, I read many college level books and novels, and I didn't need a CI to get thru life. From the arguments I am reading on Cochlear Implant threads and from arguments from Pro-CI people, I am deeply offended that the implications are I am not good enough of a person and a fucktard for not having a CI.! I even had a friend come up to me a month ago with the nerve to tell me if I do not agree with him on issues with cochlear implants, I am no longer his friend. That was so fucked up! Despite the differences between everyone, if you let CIs get in the way of respect and friendship towards other people, you need to get your head examined!!!

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I can't wait to see the new Appleseed!!

The Salt Lake Tribune -- Center's Rebound: Weber State player has rediscovered a love of basketball after it once seemed to be a curse: "'Once, [Majerus] said to me in practice, 'You're just a deaf dumb f---. You must have a learning disability.' . . . [But] I had the best grade-point average on the team,' Allred says. 'Another time, my sophomore year, on January 6th, 2002, during practice at St. Mary's College, he told me: 'Lance, you've weaseled yourself through life using your hearing as an excuse. You're a disgrace to cripples. If I was a cripple in a wheelchair and saw [the way] you play basketball, I'd shoot myself.' He said that in front of the whole team . . . At that point, I said, 'I don't want to play for him.' "