I think I am going to write a book: "101 Creative Ways to Kill Yourself"

If you have friends, ask yourself this: "Am I a true friend?" I know I wouldn't leave a friend hanging there alone if they needed help. True friends don't give up on their friends. True friends don't give "tough love". I know what tough love is, because I had it my whole life. When I think of "tough love", it makes me think of negative feelings. I admit to being somewhat negative, but being negative to me doesn't help. So, I know "tough love" doesn't work for me. Constructive criticism works better.

I changed my mind, I rejoined Ringo. Click to join my Ringo!

More poems!

• violated
• pangs
• I remember you
• foundation
• ruthless
• grasp
• reminisce

I have come across new information this week that my former roommate, Aaron Williams, admitted publicly to kicking me out of my residence in Orem, Utah. He caused me unnecessary hardship and emotional abuse, resulting in forcing me out of the place. I moved out because I wanted the peace. Obviously, he loves to contend with others, especially me! It's no surprise this asshole isn't married yet! Dude, here's a free clue for you: "People HATE to be controlled and disrespected. Stop trying to lord over others and learn to control yourself!"

I am adding the search option for my site!! YAY!

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* searching blogger's archives is messy, you will have to do a "find" or CTRL-F to search for the topic you are looking for.

Also, in the past two days, I have made several retro style brushes. I will post them online later for public use.

Ugh! I slept very short last night because I had 2 different nightmares. I hope it'll never happen again!

I added a script to show random webshots or pics of myself on the top, right corner of this page.

Working on another poem.. :: bound :: standing on the edge, looking down teeter, totter, eyes closed, nerves black, bottomless pit, growing vast swirling, twirling, spinning mind, raw gravity pulls, chains on my soul, tight grinding, binding, heart beating hard (cont..) -philip © 2003

What is peace?

more poems..

• restricted
• at the gate
• always
• the key of curiosity
• addiction
• demise
• doodle
• vulnerable
• cares
• crazy
• blue moon
• apostolic aspirant
• heartsick
• heybaby

I wrote another poem over the weekend.. More poetry will be written and posted!

For those who know Curt, here's a bunch of photos of him! He's an awesome dude and will be greatly missed when he moves back East next month! *sigh*

My random thoughts: I am tired of trying and finding out I am doing it all wrong! When I give so much, I get nothing, but when I don't give enough, I have been accused of being "me, me, me"..

I am going to try to finish my profile and links by tonight. Because I don't know when I will be back on again afterwards. I am dealing with a crisis right now and will be going to the hospital in a day or two.

What's Laurent, South Dakota? Welcome! The town of Laurent, South Dakota is a vision that has been in the making for many years. Our vision is for a place where our nation's signing community can gather together to live, work, play, and worship in comfort and beauty. Laurent, S.D. is not just for deaf or hard of hearing people — the town welcomes and embraces hearing people from all walks of life who want to be a part of the sign language community. Today, Laurent exists only as a dream in the minds of its founders, and now, it is up to us to actually build this town that is accessible, friendly, economically and politically viable. A place we can proudly call HOME. // more info..

Yay!! Got my Tag-Board ironed out!! It's ready to use!

FREE ActiveScan:

I moved the tagboard, still not finished setting it up. But I finished setting up the Web Fire Escape: You can see it on the bottom, left corner!

Today, as of 8:35 AM, I erased myself, along with stories, pictures and my list of 71 friends from www.ringo.com.

I just installed an AIM indicator to let you know if I am online or not. Add Deaf258 to your contact list Send Deaf258 a message

Updated and re-uploaded the 3 Registry files.

What's your name if you lived in Middle Earth?

featured stinker:
danny ghetto wannabe

"Yo, wiggah!" Hey, farm boy, you need to drop the ghetto wannabe act! It's getting very old. Several people came up and informed me that, lately, you have been talking shit about me. Okay, you asked for it, dude. All hands are out, knuckled and ready. Wanna start a fight with me, bitch?? You're the first featured stinker of this website! I know I am going to sound very harsh, but I have had it up here with you and your inability to care for your guests at this apartment!! What you did to me was not very nice, talking behind my back and saying stuff that aren't true! If you have something to say, you say it to my face and stop running around like a chickenshit. I could write a very long article about you and the shit you hash out ON your roommates, dates and friends, but this time, I will keep it simple. Yo, motherfucker.. I never hacked into your computer, not even once, not even twice! I am angry that you aren't being the friend I thought you were. If you never left your dates and friends here, I would never had to TOUCH your virus/worm/porn infected computer! How did I get in your computer in the first place? Dude, I cannot believe you are that STUPID enough to leave your password in the hint box! Let me educate you to get your 2 stories straight: Story 1: "On November 1, I selfishly left Wendy at my apartment while I went out to have fun with other friends all Saturday morning. She was using my computer and somehow my screensaver which I had set for 5 minutes went up and locked her out. She was near tears and panicking that she had no way of calling her family or friends for a ride home which is 40 miles away from my apartment. She didn't have everyone's numbers to call on the videophone. Fortunately for Wendy, Philip came out of his bedroom and saw her freaking out and sitting at my computer. Philip asked her what's wrong and she told him about my stupid screensaver being so inconsiderate to her. Philip went to my computer and typed a few keys. He got an error on my computer and clicked the password hint box. *gasp!* How dumb and idiotic of me to leave my password in the hint box! Philip saw what the password is and typed it in. The computer opened up and Wendy was so very grateful and thanked Philip for his help. He left Wendy with my computer. Gee!! I should have taken Wendy and drove her home myself because I had her over my apartment! And, thank you, Philip, for saving my inconsiderate ass!" Story 2: "One of my friends, Curt, came over to my apartment 2 nights ago. After chatting with me, I went to bed while Curt was chatting with Philip. It was my mistake not saying goodnight to my friend and letting him know I am going to bed. Curt ended up thinking I had left my apartment and deserted him. Curt went to my room and asked Philip if he knows how to get in my computer. Philip told Curt that he is not sure about it because it is my computer and I might have changed the password already. I forgot Curt has Usher's Syndrome and won't always see everything right away. Philip came into my dark bedroom and saw me laying in bed and waved to me. I waved back. Philip turned to Curt and told him I am still here on the bed and awake. Philip suggested to Curt to ask me instead if I could log him in my computer and leave Philip out of it. I didn't go back to bed because I thought Philip was hacking into my computer and stayed awake a little longer. I should have trusted Philip now that I know the story!" Okay, Danny boy.. I was trying to help your friends because you were NOT there to help them! Next time you ditch your friends at this apartment, I am kicking them out of the building, literally! You better start being a real friend and make sure your friends or dates are taken care of BEFORE you either leave the apartment or before you go to bed! Now that you have backstabbed me, I am tired of covering for you! You have hurt me and I don't want to have anything to do with you now! Learn to be responsible for YOUR guests, bitch! *snap*

Working on stories for some of my Ringo friends..

I am thinking about adding useless info on my profile like what's my current MSN screenname.. Former MSN names:

:[ I wanna bite! :[
DJ ({) (L) (bah) Dolly!

Current MSN name: (*) Gimme a (C) of (L)Chai(L) and I am all SET!!! (*)

I am trying out a few layouts from BlogSkins.com, so please be patient with me! I also need to work on content for the right side of this page.. and, no, I am not Jess.

I hooked up with some nifty tools from NerdsOnSite and will add them under my tagboard.

I found a bunch of bots for AIM users! Check them out here:

• Keebler's RecipeBuddie
• Create Your Bot!
• Use IMBotster to send your messages to your OFFLINE friends!

I am testing out an Internet Explorer right-click menu add-on registry file for posting into my BlogThis! I will post a variety of these nifty right-click menu options. If you have a homepage you want added to your right-click menu, please feel free to ask me! By using my registry files, you agree not to hold me responsible for any damages to your computer, as I have already tried them on my computer and no harm came to it. If they do not work on your computer, I don't know how to help you! Don't bother me with reports of bugs in my registry files. Don't download them if you don't know what you are doing! These registry files do NOT work with Netscape or other browsers. The bottom line is: USE AT YOUR OWN RISK!!! IE Right-Click Menu Options: iMood Updater - download BlogThis! - download My Blog - download

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rodeoprincess113 (1:52:20 PM): hi rodeoprincess113 (1:53:07 PM): someone gave me ur sn and told me 2 talk 2 u Deaf258 (1:53:40 PM): about what? rodeoprincess113 (1:53:52 PM): nothing rodeoprincess113 (1:54:35 PM): asl Deaf258 (1:54:39 PM): then why IM me? rodeoprincess113 (1:54:53 PM): i was bored Deaf258 (1:56:25 PM): not good enough of a reason rodeoprincess113 (1:56:36 PM): o Deaf258 (1:56:45 PM): * blocked rodeoprincess113 *

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A note to everyone NOT on my buddy list: If you IM me for no good reason, don't bother. I will block your dumb ass!